I’m fucking crying…
I’m so pathetic. I can’t like function on my own. It’s so sad. Like I say constantly how I don’t want someone to need to talk to me all day or hang out with me everyday or be like super clingy but I’m exactly that. I can’t even go one week. Shit. I can’t even go like three days. I just miss you so much. I just want you here next to me while I sleep. I just want to know that you’re present. I can’t even stand the fact that so many other people get to see you and I don’t. God. I say I’m not the jealous type but I so am. I trust you in ever aspect. I just don’t trust anyone else. I can’t. You’re mine and I am yours and that’s all I want. It’s like I didn’t have enough time with you. School ended too quickly. We talk every day and I’m still pathetic enough to the point where that’s not enough and I upset myself. I try to hold it together because I know you’re doing just fine. You’re so amazing. You’re so strong. I’m weak. I’m crying because I haven’t seen you in a whole week. I’m crying because I feel like you’re too good for me. You’re too beautiful. I don’t know how I got so lucky. I found someone who is so hopeless romantic like I am and now you’re so far away. I just wish there was like a knock at my door and you could be here. At least for a couple days. I hate school but I wish I was back there so I can spend my days with you again. And I keep having terrible dreams that I lose you to another person. Constantly. Over and over. Why am I so insecure. I’m so insecure that I don’t think I’m good enough for anything. I’m sorry. I hope I am good enough for you because you have been something spectacular in my life an I don’t want you to leave for a very long time.